Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Grand Columbian

A little late, but here's a re-cap of the Grand Columbian......
The Venue: Grand Coulee, WA
The Race: Grand Columbian ironman-distance realy

I asked my sister over a year ago if she had any desire to do the swim portion of an ironman race. I would ride and we'd find a runner. She was completely into the idea and when my cousin said he would run, we had a team. We were "Team SPT" (splash / pedal / trot)!! I picked the venue of the Grand Columbian because, well actually, I'm not 100% sure why anymore. It's a small, independent race and had a similar vibe to Silverman (except even smaller!) and they offered a relay division so that was it. And later I found out it was on my cousin's b-day so it was meant to be.

I had done some course review from the info on-line and the bike course really didn't look all that bad to me. The site had the course mapped out at 3,967' climbing. My long rides in San Diego mostly consist of 5,000' or more of climbing, so I figured I was good with hill training. So for the months leading up to the race, I made my own make-shift bike training plan (note to self: you're no good at creating your own training plans...). I did long rides on the weekend, and did indoor trainer rides during the week. I wasn't swimming due to my injured shoulder and I was running only 30 minutes at a time 4-5 days / week. I was actually enjoying life and going out and having fun. Woe is me!

The race was on a Saturday and on Thursday we all got emails that the wild fires in the area were threatening to force the race director to cancel the event. A decision would be made Friday. On Friday, we got another email saying things were generally OK and we were good to go. I drove the bike course Friday with my mom and sister. And my thoughts of "this won't be too bad" diminished in the first 10 miles of the ride. There's a long 2 mile climb from T1 out to the main road. No big problems there, just starting out slow. Then at about mile 5 there's basically a cliff you have to ride over to get to where most of the ride takes place. It's about 3-4 miles, grades ranging from 6% to 10% with some switchbacks. After that, you do about 70 miles of rolling hills, false flats, headwinds and the only thing to look at is fields of wheat. But at mile 80 you hit the scenic part of the ride and go north along Banks Lake and it's mostly flat.... oh except a headwind is guaranteed and then finally at mile 110 you hit the fun descent to the base of the Grand Coulee dam.

Friday afternoon we met up with my cousin and family and got our race logistics down. We went to the grocery store to get food to make our own pre-race dinner in the "motel". Chef Jenny took charge
on the food front. I proceeded to get flu like symptoms (fever and achy) and wonder why I seem to be 2 for 2 on getting sick the day before the race. I hit the sack around 7:30 PM.

Saturday we woke up early and thankfully I felt much better. Let's do this, y'all! I said goodbye's to Jenny as she wandered down to the lake to get ready. I hung out at transition and tried to keep warm and do some stretching. The swim was two loops, so my mom said she'd come tell me when Jenny was starting her 2nd loop so I'd know when to be ready. Well, she was done in about 30 minutes. Crikey - guess I better be ready! Nothing like doing your first ironman-distance swim in an hour! I saw Jenny run up towards transition and we hugged, exchanged the chip, took some pics and I was off.  I made it out on the main road and up and over the "cliff" (which turned out wasn't *too* bad. Made it through the miles and miles of rolling fields of wheat. One thing I noticed was my Garmin registered 3,900' of climbing right around mile 40. WTF - I've got 70 miles left to ride and I know it's not all flat! Oh well, carry on.

My mom, sis and cousins were waiting for me at strategic places for photo ops and cheering. Thank God because the race was even more desolate than anything I've ever done before - and I've done some lonely rides.....). I got to mile 80-ish all happy to finally get to some scenery and flat road, but the headwind kept me from going very fast. And also every little hump of a hill felt like a freaking mountain because of all the climbing so early in the race. But Mile 110 was ahead and I could finally descend the long curvy road to T2. I rolled in right around 6hrs 25 min later. Might I mention that from about mile 50 to the end of the ride all I kept thinking was how happy I was I didn't have to run after this. How I ever trained for Ironman, I have no idea... At any rate, chip exchange with my cousin, more photos and I was finally on vacation!  Matt went out for his run and we tried to
watch / cheer. But most of the run was in a secure area of the Grand Coulee dam and people weren't allowed down there. So, that sort of...sucked. But we manged to get in some strategic places for cheering and bring him in for the finish! Team SPT was in just under 12 1/2 hours. Woooooo!







Friday, August 31, 2012

Top 10 (errr - 14) Songs to Listen to on the Computrainer

Ahhh - Labor Day Weekend... the sign of the end of summer. Although in San Diego, does summer ever really end? Temps go from 85 to 70... I'm OK with that! So, this post is for all my midwest friends as they prepare to hunker down and spend those Saturdays on the trainer.  Although I'm a firm believer that all those days on the trainer during my winters in Chicago is what made me the bad ass rider I am today.  So get 'er done folks!

Here are my favorite heart pounding / energy creating / come on legs! / one more interval songs to listen to while riding inside.  These are my go-to songs and are on practically every play list I have for indoor riding...

They are (in no particular order):
"Kerosene" - Big Black
"The Missing" - Ministry
"'Til I Collapse" - Eminem
"TFWO" - Skinny Puppy
"It Doesn't Matter" - Chemical Brothers
"Family Affair" - Mary J Blige
"Looking Down the Barrel of a Gun" - Beastie Boys
"Raise Your Glass" - P!nk"
"Mountain Song" - Jane's Addiction
"Speed" - Atari Teenage Riot
"Know Your Enemy" - Greenday
"Attack Ships on Fire" - RevCo
"Decade" - Delerium
"One Fine Day" - The Offspring

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Shoes and Being a Girl

Last weekend I went to Northern Michigan for my cousin's wedding. The ceremony and reception were amazing. Beautiful and simple and elegant. I had loads of fun catching up with my family, cousins and Aunts / Uncles. I don't see my family very often and every time I do I'm reminded that I have a superbly fantastic extended family.

I flew home Sunday night and contacted a friend to see if he wanted to meet me for a drink. My car was parked at the airport and I thought it would be fun to extend my vacation a few hours at one of the cool local neighborhood bars.  He agreed and so we went to Brooklyn Girl in Mission Hills.

I hadn't seen this friend in a few months and there was lots to catch up on. The conversation was good and the drinks and food were fantastic. At one point in the evening the talking turned to relationships and dating as I suppose more often than not, it does. I told my friend I just couldn't do it anymore. A few recent happenings just sort of did it in for me. Although, the wedding did reaffirm my faith that true love can happen and Cinderella stories still exist. My friend listened intently and made a couple observations / suggestions. He said I shouldn't write the end of my book, because frankly, you can't. He said in a round about way, that I'm an amazing person, but maybe I ought to try and put forth a little effort every now and then. Reading between the lines, I believe he meant that the next time I go out I should try to put on something nice, leave the track jacket at home and maybe even wear some lipstick; show off the confidence I exude while riding my bike...

My first reaction was pretty defensive... "Well, that's not who I am!". I can certainly put on a dress and look nice, but I do that on special occasions (i.e. wedding!). But now that a few days have passed I think my friend gave me some pretty damn good advice.


So, I'm wearing a skirt today at work and I put my only pair of  heels in the car. After work, I'm making myself look nice and going out with a girlfriend. Maybe at age 38 and 10 months I ought to try and be a girl. "They" say do things that scare you... well, this scares the sh*t out of me! I'll walk into the restaurant like I own the place... and if I fall on my ass then so be it. Might make for a good Part 2 to the story.

Cheers!
Mer

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Sh*t That Goes Thru My Head While On The Trainer

My weekday long ride screwed up my system, so this morning instead of doing my usual Saturday long ride, I did a trainer session. To compliment my previous post about Sh*t I think about while riding alone, here's what I think about while on the trainer....

*What shall I listen to.....
*Legs feel good - that's a relief
*I need a GU
*ALL OF LIFE COMES TO ME WITH EASE JOY AND GLORY
*400 Watts - suck on that! I'm a fucking machine!!!
*Tres Cool from Greenday fucking rocks
*My hoo-haaaaa hurts
*One day, that guy walking his bike up the hill outside my house is gonna ride up.  I just know it
*I can't wait for Grand Columbian - I'm gonna rock that course
*Come on Legs!!! GO!!! GO!!! GO!!!
*I need to ride with the Coyotes next weekend. Whatever they're doing, I'm doing it
*No more sugar for me....ever....well, after this GU
*Why am I doing this
*1 minute intervals - GO! NOW!
*I need to buy apples
* I wish DZ was interviewed more. Cracks me up. "...messes with my night's sleep...". Hahahahaaa
*What am I doing with my life
*IM New Zealand 2014....If I can swim by the end of the year, I'm signing the fuck up. Fuck this shit.
*Why did my coach's wife send me a link to a free subscription to Fitness Singles? Shitballs, if I ever do that again, someone fucking shoot me
*ALL OF LIFE COMES TO ME WITH EASE JOY AND GLORY
*Oh my god - 10 more minutes.  It's like hell
*Done.  I'm fucking awesome

Thursday, July 5, 2012

July 4th Ride

Yesterday was the 4th of July. Instead of plopping myself in front of the computer to take on-line traffic school I went for a bike ride and did 103 miles. I had mapped out a 100 mile ride from my house so I knew what I was doing, but I didn't really *know* what I was doing.  I had worked up to 80 miles over the past month, but have just been putting in the miles and time. No interval work or hard efforts. My partially torn Rotator Cuff has kept me from swimming or weight lifting so all I've been doing lately is riding and a little bit of running.

As I rolled out, my body felt off and I thought about shortening the ride quite a few times. I wasn't drinking or eating and I knew that was not ideal. Thankfully, the weather was cloudy and overcast and cool. Around Mile 50 I was on a road I've been on before, but it turned out to be a dead end, so I turned around and made my route an "out and back". Around Mile 70 I started to feel better and was forced to decide whether to take a right and go down Palomar Airport road to the coast to get home or my original plan of going up San Elijo, back through Elfin Forest / Del Dios.  The first plan would be a much easier route, but with lots of traffic lights and stop / go. The second plan would be lots of hills, but a nicer, more scenic route.  I chose the 2nd option. I made it up San Elijo without too much difficulty, which surprised me. I stopped at a gas station at Mile 80 and for probably 10 minutes wandered up and down the short isles in a daze.  Finally I bought a water and an Oats and Honey crunchy granola bar. After a short break, I got back on my bike and made my way home. I got sidetracked in Rancho Santa Fe by a parade, but found a way around it.

Post ride I realized I just rode 103 miles with 7,300 feet of climbing and ate 4 gels, 1/2 a Lara bar, an Oats and Honey granola bar and 1 1/2 bottles water. Seems light, but I think the "less is more" nutrition plan works for me.  I do feel a little dehydrated so definitely more water should have been consumed...

I hope everyone had a fantastic 4th of July.  Keep riding.....
Cheers

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Inspired

One of the perks of living in San Diego and participating in the sport of triathlon is being part of the largest triathlon club in the country. Well, I think it's the largest...don't quote me on that.  So, even though I'm taking time off from racing, I'm still interested in what's going on in the sport and volunteering and being part of the lifestyle.  When the June club meeting was scheduled and was going to feature Chrissie Wellington, I jumped at the opportunity to hear her speak and purchase her book, "A Life Without Limits".

The interview was great.  Bob Babbitt (Competitor, CAF) usually mc's the interviews at the club meetings and he's a great interview-er. Chrissie is very articulate, smart, funny and an all-around pleasure to listen to. She told a few stories of her pre-triathlon life and they were quite amazing. So when I started reading her book I had a little bit of a clue it would be awesome.....but when I finished, I was left feeling that I had just read the most amazing and inspirational book I had ever read.  Seriously.

First off, the whole first part of the book talks about her studies, work abroad, crazy adventures (mountain biking to the base camp of Mt. Everest - what??!) and a topic that hits home for me....eating disorders and body image issues.  While I don't consider myself ever having a true "eating disorder" (i.e. I've never made myself throw up or went anorexia), my relationship with food has definitely been a bumpy one. And my relationship with myself as far as body image goes, well that has also been a bumpy one. I felt that it was extremely brave of Chrissie to share that part of her story in the book.  Eventually the book switched gears to her triathlon career. I read the stories about her early races, working with a coach for the first time and being the newcomer to the sport. All of which I felt like I could relate to. (Well, except for the part of winning nearly almost every race I entered - heh heh!). The stories of pains and struggles and mental fortitude to keep going were familiar to me.  I can't help but find it ironic that Ms. Wellington decided to take this year off racing and so have I. By no means am I comparing myself to her! But I feel that I put so much pressure on myself and I have ignored parts of life I don't want to ignore anymore and that's my reason for taking a step back. I *think* that's part of Chrissie's reason as well.

If you get a chance, I highly recommend reading her book.  It is quite amazing.  And very inspiring. And I now know that when I'm ready I'll race ironman again. Probably a destination race! Anyone up for Switzerland or New Zealand??

Cheers!


Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Discover, learn and grow

This past weekend I wandered down to the Solana Beach Street Festival. At first I thought it was cool. But then I realized it just wasn't my thing. I wandered around amongst the crowd...tried to be interested in the booths and see what things were for sale or what businesses were being promoted. I was going to get some food, but none of the food choices nor the beer tent really appealed to me.  I came to the conclusion that I'm not a street festival type of gal.....and that's OK.  So, I wandered up the street and sat at Java Depot...sucked down a delicious smoothie, hung out and enjoyed the moment. Much more my style.  Low key...no crowds....just chill.

While I was wandering around the festival, I asked myself, "why am I here". I came up with two reasons...The first was I felt like I *had* to be there.  It's a street festival...in my neighborhood...I need to check it out.  The second reason was I was bored and didn't want to sit around the house and didn't want to do chores.  I'm happy I went to the festival. I always thought I liked that sort of thing.  But I don't.  That's not to say I'll never go to another street festival again.  I would most certainly go with a friend and have a good time and laugh and hang out....but the festival would be the backdrop to the more important activity of being with the friend and connecting, sharing, laughing, talking, etc...etc...etc. In this world of facebook and twitter and everything else, let's not forget the simple joy of connecting with people face to face and talking!  I digress from my original thought when starting this post.  Next time I do something or try something new for that matter, I'll take a moment to make sure I'm doing it because I want to....not because I have to, or expect anything, or think it'll be cool to post on FB.  Final thought....also this past weekend, I took a Stand Up Paddleboarding class.  Now, that was amazing. And I'm so glad I tried that because I ended up discovering a new thing I like to do. Life is all about discovery, learning and growing.

Cheers!


Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Today I ran

...because I woke up and felt like it!  I know - such a simple thing.  Why would you do something if you don't want to.  It's not that for the past six years I've swam and rode and ran because I didn't want to....but I did those things mainly because I had to in order to achieve the goal I set out to achieve.  Well this morning, I woke up and I felt like running so I ran.  An easy 30 minute cruise down the street to the ocean and back.  But it was awesome. I listened to the birds.  I listened to the morning traffic. I listened to myself breathe. I don't know how fast I was running or how far I went and I don't care. I didn't log it in Training Peaks or any other training log. I just enjoyed the moment.

I remember when I first moved to San Diego (1 year ago this week), I was having a bit of a crisis.  I struggled a bit with being in a new place, finding my way around, working in a new job environment.  All of the typical things a person would feel when picking up and moving across the country by themselves.  Reflecting back, I was also going through a bit of depression and god knows what else and I made things more dramatic than they needed to be. I was dealing with nagging injuries and couldn't fully do the one thing that was my safe-ground which was train.

I've come a long way in the past year. With the help of some truly amazing people I've gone through some self discovery and acceptance. I'm learning to stop judging people and myself and just be aware. I'm learning what makes me happy, what my strengths and weaknesses are and that I'm not perfect and that's ok. My screen shot on my phone says, "I forgive myself. I don't get to be more perfect than anyone else. I am human".  I have a more positive outlook on life, what I want to do, who fits in my life, who doesn't. I'm excited for the future and new experiences. And running because I want to...not because I have to.

Cheers!



Tuesday, May 22, 2012

American Zofingen - My finest hour(s)

Well I'm home and a little recovered from the race.  I feel the need to jot down my experience to remind myself when things get tough, they can't really get any tougher than this!

I left San Diego Thursday AM feeling happy and excited and stress free.  I was knowingly "undertrained" for this race due to taking time off to try and properly heal my knee and hammie / glute issues. But I decided that I would just do the race, not put any pressure on myself and really for the first time set no real time goal other than finish and have fun. As the Slowtwitch banterings started (AmZof pre-race smack talk), I knew I was going to meet some amazing, nice and funny people so I made peace with myself for just going for the fun of it.

So back to Thursday.....I board the plane, we depart from the gate and then the pilot tells us a bird flew into the plane the night before and they had a mechanic on the way to check things out and clear us to take off.  OK fine....this takes oh I don't know, about an hour.  We get cleared and then we sit on the taxiway because we missed our opportunity to take off and now there are too many planes on approach (the joy of living in a city with an airport with only one runway).  So we sit another, oh I don't know 30 minutes.  Finally we take off and land in Chicago.  I missed my connection (no surprise), but got re-booked on the next flight. Well, the next flight flew from Chicago to Indianaoplis to Baltimore (3 hour layover) to Albany. So, by the time I landed in Albany, got my suitcase, rented my car and drove to the hotel, it was 1 AM. Ok fine.  The bad part of the trip is over. Let's get some sleep and start having fun TO-morrow.
view on the bike course

me...at the ga-zeeee-bo
Friday I head over to Catskill Mountain Multisport to see if they had my bike. I met John (infamous race director) and Don. They had the bike and everything was in order so Don said he would build it up for me and it would be ready in the AM.  Yay! I knew right away after meeting John and Don this was going to be everything I wanted. A super awesome, low key, fun race....and really really really hard. Don printed out some course maps for me and I took off to drive the bike loop. My first reaction was this wasn't going to be too bad. There are definitely some challenging climbs, but overall it looked manageable. I found the park where the run course and start / finish is. I didn't venture into the woods to actually see the run course. I basically just took in the views and hung out at the gazebo for a bit. The views are spectacular. I had no idea what this part of the country looked like. Spectacular.

Finally I got hungry and ventured into town (New Paltz) and ate at this super cool cafe called Karma Road. The mneu was all organic and full of cool salads, wraps, smoothies, etc.  I ate the kale / avocado salad feeling really good and relaxed and happy. Drove around a bit more and then back to the hotel to chill and sleep.  Sometime in the night I woke up with stomach issues, but they didn't bother me 'til early Saturday morning...when all hell broke lose. No details need to be written.  Let's just say the kale / avocado salad was doing everything it could to get out of my body. Doubled over in pain, I left a message for my friend Lee who was driving over from NYC to say "hi" and hang out for a bit. I told her I was sick, but to call me when she got here. I felt a little better when Lee arrived and we went to get my bike and then did a little exploring. I tried eating a little with some success but as the afternoon was approaching I felt like I wasn't getting much better.

I went to bed Saturday night not really knowing what to do. I was in a state of emotional turmoil. I called my mom and she told me to get some medicine and saltine crackers.  "Mom" I said - "The nearest store is 20-30 minutes away.  I can't get in the car and drive anywhere right now". 99% of the time I'm fine with doing things by myself. I enjoy traveling on my own. I can do whatever I want, see whatever I want to see.  But I must admit, in this moment on Saturday night, all I really wanted was someone there to take care of me. But I digress.  I didn't get much sleep Saturday night.....

Sunday morning I woke up completely confused. I was still feeling a little queasy, but I managed to eat a bagel with some peanut butter and my gear was already packed so I made the final decision to go to the race, get on the start line and just see what happens. The bike and second run are multiple loops so I told myself, if I needed to, I could bail at any time.

setting up
When I arrived at the race, I saw Don who was super happy I showed up which in turn made me super happy. I met a couple of folks who were setting up near me in transition. Everyone was so nice and friendly and happy and not too stressed out. I felt a bit more calm. I chatted with a couple folks who racked their bikes near me and as it turned out we all (well, me + two others) worked in the construction industry. We were chatting about the 'effed up industry we work in....not anything about the race or gear or equipment or the weather or time goals or what races we've done or what races we're doing or how fast can you bike / run or any of the bullshit you usually hear in transition before a race. It was refreshing...



long course start
The long course race started at 7:30....before the race, John gave us some final instructions. Which quite honestly I don't remember and then he played the National Anthem on the bagpipes, which was awesome, and then we were off.

1st Run - 5 miles (trail)
I had no idea what the run course was like so I was excited to venture into the unknown. 47 crazy people started the long course. I put myself at the rear of the pack. My only thought at this point was I wanted to keep a couple folks in my sites because I was deathly afraid of getting lost in the woods. I stayed with a couple folks during most of the run. The course was well marked so those worries faded. But when I wiped out (ahem - twice) on the FLAT section of the course I knew it was going to be a long day. The run course is amazing. The trail is awesome. The hills are impossible to run up. The downhills weren't bad (my knees were grateful for that). I finished the 1st run and headed out on the bike

Bike - 84 miles
I made my way out of the park on the gravel, taking it slow....if I wiped out on the flat part of the run course, the last thing I needed was to wipe out / crash on the bike.  Once out of the park the steepest climb on the bike loop awaits you. So I made my way up and then settled in to the super fast and curvy downhill. More hills, some long climbs, awesome views, a few flat / fast sections and then short of two hours later I found myself at the start of the loop again. I told the volunteers at the aid station I'd catch them on the next loop. As I made my way up the steepest hill for the 2nd time, all I could think was, "how the shit am I going to get up this hill on the 3rd loop". Ah but never mind. I'm over it now and that's what counts. One moment at a time. I made my way around for the 2nd time. I checked my watch and I think I did the 2nd loop just under two hours so I was happy I was at least being consistent on the bike. But looming ahead of me was the "hill". I tried to break it down into sections. But the bottom line is, this is what was going through my head, "You've never gotten off your bike in a race before and I'll be damned if you're going to do it today". "C'mon legs!!!", "Are you f*cking kidding me", "Move! Move! Move!", "f*ck this shit", "oh look - a squirrel". "just get over this stupid f*cking hill...you can do whatever you want after that". At any rate - you get the idea. I made it over the top and collapsed into my aero bars and nearly passed out. I gathered myself and made my way around the final loop. Which I don't remember much of....but I made the turn back into the park and into transition. I racked my bike and said, "what the hell do I have to do now????"

2nd Run - 15 miles (trail - 3 loops of the 1st run)
run course arrows
I stared out on the run and my stomach and legs let me know right off the bat that any thought of running was not going to happen. So I accepted that fact and mentally tried to prepare myself for a 15 mile power hike. During my first loop I met quite a few folks who were either on their 2nd or 3rd loop. They looked fresh and happy and were bounding along. It was hard not to get discouraged, but I gave them well wishes and good jobs because I needed their energy to keep me going. I made my way around the loop, stumbled into the gazebo and saw Don. He asked me how I was doing. I told him I wasn't doing so good...that I'm going to have to walk this entire course. I told him as long as you guys are still here and not tearing down the arrows, I'll keep going. He told me to keep going that he was super proud of me for being out there and that's pretty much all I needed to hear.  The 2nd loop was a repeat of the 1st. I tried running a little, but it wasn't happening and I felt much better just doing a power hike. As I walked through the gazebo the 2nd time, I asked John if I had time to finish and he said I most certainly did so I headed back out. The 3rd loop was very serene. I don't think anyone else was on the course. It was still daylight out, but the animals and critters were much more vocal. I became much more aware of my surroundings. The trees, terrain and everything. I was washing away inner demons. I was going to finish this race. It would have been so easy to quit. It would have been so easy to say, well since I can't run, I might as well just give up. But once I started out on the 3rd loop there was nowhere to go but finish. As I made my way around, I kept telling myself, "how does it get any better than this"?

I was the only crazy F35-39 to do the race :)
I approached the gazebo for the final time, John yelled out - 4th lap?! I probably would have gone out a 4th time...just for the hell of it. But the timing dude took my chip off and John gave me a huge beer stein and I was done.

on the pipes bringing in the final athlete
Most of the post-race party and shenanigans were over, but I did talk with some folks who were lingering about. It was nice just to sit down and chat and share experiences. As it turns out, there was another gal who was finishing behind me and as she approached, John got back on the bagpipes to summon her to the finish. It's that kind of image that will stick with me and in my head. The crew that puts on this race really, truly care about the athletes. Here's another reason to do the race...the live updates (I read this after the race - funny shit here!)

Before this race I decided to take some time off and not sign up for anything big for awhile. Finishing this race was the perfect ending to my first phase of triathlon life. I got into the sport to run away from a lot of things. I have met some truly amazing people the past few years, but I'm not sure I'm having any fun. So I'm going to try some new things and see what I like. The cool thing about living in SoCal is there are triathlons every weekend so I can always sign up for one on the fly if the urge hits me. I do know that I love riding so I see a lot of riding in my future. And I signed up for a stand-up-paddleboarding class. And joined some hiking groups. And cooking classes...and yoga...and volunteering...and wine tastings....and I still want a dog :)

Cheers to all and much love....just keep telling yourself, "how does it get any better than this?"


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Smile-y post of the day...with ducks!

This email was sent out on the Tri Club San Diego's email newsgroup.....a very simple act of kindness makes me happy...plus, I just love ducks.

"After the Olympic waves had set off, I walked over to the swim exit just in time to see a duck and her 7 tiny ducklings dash across the racers' path; they made it across, no harm done. Then a tiny 8th came skeetering along, well behind. By then, mom was in the water and paddling like mad to get away from the swimmers. I tried (unsuccessfully) to get #8 reunited; mom was too far from shore. Enter TCSD's own Ray Barrios...he was getting ready for his race, scooped the duckling up, and headed out to open water with it. After several attempts (including a dash along the cove's shore), Ray managed to get them all back together, safe and sound. One of life's minor triumphs. I'm really pleased to be in a sport and organization with such kind and ready-to-pitch-in people!

Thanks, Ray!!"


Thursday, February 9, 2012

Ask Questions

Turn negative thoughts into positive ones
Every time you ask a question answer yes
Anything that does not allow that am I willing to destroy and un-create? YES

I've been experimenting with opening up myself to idea of changing the way my mind has been thinking my whole life.  It's a fine line between putting things out in the universe that you "want" and making them happen for yourself.  But, I think by specifically putting things out there that you want to happen you are subconsciously making them happen.

Stay on course
Put forth the effort and take some personal responsibility.
BELIEVE
That which you put out there comes back to you so better to put out positivity
Help others and ask for help when you need it.

The past couple of days I've been wondering if I truly enjoy my job.  Today my sister brought up the fact that for now, even if my job isn't my dream job, it's giving me a paycheck that allows me to focus on the things that are important right now.  Being happy, positive, healing my knees, learning about food and how it affects me. For example today I was feeling great.  Then someone left some cookies in the lunch room at work.  I took two and ate them.  Ten minutes later I was crying.  For no reason.  Sugar really fucks with me.  I forgive myself for eating the cookies because I love myself first and foremost.  And I draw on that love to resist eating the cookie next time.  I have come to terms with the fact that it (sugar) is just something I can no longer have.  Like people who allergic to peanut butter.  Life goes on.  The world will not end!

Back to my original thought when starting this post.  I believe I will run again without pain.
What energy, space and consciousness can my body and I truly be to run pain free as long as I like and advance my personal goals? Anything that does not allow that, am I willing to destroy and un-create? YES

I love this statement I read on twitter yesterday:  "If it is important to you, you will find a way to get it done.  If it's not, you will find an excuse."--@darkhorsetri

And this one: "How can it get any better than this?"--@ZenEnterprises

Make it count,
Mer-ooo

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Sh*t that goes through my head while riding alone

--WTF
--Please turn green - I'm not stopping in the middle of this hill
--I'm a rock star
--I need to fix the garbage disposal
--I need to scoop the cat litter
--I need to buy lettuce / veggies
--I need to make a massage appointment
--I need to stop making my "to do" list in my head
--Where am I?
--I should stop and take a picture and post it on FB - ah fuck stopping
--I need to pee
--HTFU
--Oh brilliant - some ass clown drafting off me down the 101.  At least say 'hi" fucker
--Smiling - "Good Morning" :):):)
--I smell bacon
--use.your.ass.muscles.
--I'm hot
--I'm cold
--Wow - that's beautiful
--In Annette's voice - "C'mon legs!!!"
--Nice turn single, ass-wipe
--I miss riding in Wisconsin with the cows
--How can I avoid riding up TFH (that fucking hill) to get home
--C'mon knees - I still need you....don't quit on me now
--Please don't whack me with that surfboard
--I need to stretch more
--I need to do more strength training
--I need to foam roll the crap out of my legs
--I need to quit my job

Monday, January 30, 2012

Letting Go

I keep getting distracted writing this post!!!

First, let me just say that this past weekend was SUPER nice - weather-wise.  I am continually amazed that I live in such an awesome place.

Ok, moving on.  Earlier in the week I was a little upset at something my coach and I were discussing.  I have found a great group to ride with (http://www.triclubcoyotes.com/). I love these guys (mostly guys - but some pretty damn cool chics also).  I have only found time to join them on their Saturday rides, but it's a blast and I never laugh so hard as I do when we hang out at Peets afterwards.  The problem is that the group (usually only 2-3 other guys) are faster than me.  I'm a good cyclist, but not that good.  And I don't know the routes inside & out yet, so "the guys" wait for me (super nice of them).  I'm never too far behind, but just a little.....depends on how hard they are hammering that day.

So when I told my coach that two Saturdays ago I bonked and actually got hungry on my ride and he told me I need to find some people more at my ability to ride with, I was upset because I've been training alone for 6 years and I finally met a group I really like and shit-balls I don't want to ride alone anymore (well not every ride....sometimes it's good to be alone with your thoughts. (That's a whole other post "Sh*t that goes through my head while riding alone"). I figure I got hungry because I was probably riding harder than I usually would and didn't bring enough food with me.  I don't think this is a bad thing.  I'm not going to get better by riding by myself.

Sooooo - this past Saturday coach said to go ahead and ride with the boys and have fun.  Yay!  But, it was a shit-storm of a day.  About 10 minutes in, I said "that thing every cyclist says when they're having a bad day.....I think my back wheel is rubbing".  Well, sure enough when I stopped to check (even though I checked before we started), it was rubbing.  So we did a quickie fix.  As we rode down the coast towards La Jolla I was hearing it again.  So we stopped at Nytro and the mechanic there took a look.  He said a couple things that disturbed me.  One, my hubs (both front and back) were loose.  So, he fixed those.  Then he said something about my dropouts not having any dropout adjusters on them and there's very very very little play in getting the rear wheel on.  You basically have to get it on dead nuts so it doesn't rub.  Which means if I get a flat while out riding or run into some problems, I have to be particularly patient when putting the wheel back on.  This will take some practice.

Onwards with the day - it wasn't so much that I was having a bad day....yes the legs felt a little fatigued, but reality was that I was having an OK day for me. Towards the end I just wasn't really enjoying the ride anymore.  Really - what's the point in riding in a group if the group is always a bit ahead of you?  The guys think I'm a great rider and say they don't mind having to wait and they point out that no other girls ride with us except me (do the math).  So, I figure I have to two options.  1 - Leave my ego at the door.  I'm a girl.  I'm a pretty damn cool girl, but I'm not gonna be able to ride 20-30 mph for a 60 mile ride (yet) so I have to just enjoy life and let the negative thoughts pass me by when the guys in the group pass me by.  2 - find a good group of chics that I can get along with, ride with and become a better cyclist with.  There are some pretty damn fast chics out there...I need to find a group that is a little better than me, but not as fast as "the guys".

I think both options are good.  Both teach me acceptance, letting go, patience and trust.

Ride on my friends!
Mer-ooo

Friday, January 20, 2012

Springsteen vs DCD

Something I hold very dear to my heart is music.  The right song can compliment my mood perfectly or have the ability to change my mood completely.  Driving down the highway with the iPod on shuffle is one of my favorite things to do.  My 2-1/2 day road trip from Chicago to San Diego was bliss from a musical perspective.

I feel I have come full circle in my musical tastes.  The first CD I ever bought was PIL's Greatest Hits.  From there I followed my sister's lead in the then-called "alternative" scene.  Bands such as Echo and the Bunnymen, Psychedelic Furs and INXS.

Then I went the 80's "electronic" route and couldn't get enough of Depeche Mode (no pun intended), New Order and The Cure.



After that I went off to college.  There I met one person who would change my life forever. He told me to get off the Depeche Mode kick and listen to some Skinny Puppy.  So, I did.  And I loved it.  From there I was all about "industrial". My music buying turned to Skinny Puppy,

Front 242, Ministry, Nitzer Ebb, Meat Beat Manifesto and Front Line Assembly.  But at the same time I was discovering brit-pop bands such as The Stone Roses, Ride, My Bloody Valentine, The Charlatans UK and shoegaze bands such as Slowdive and Spaceman 3. I was just soaking in everything.  I went to some amazing shows, met a lot of my musical idols.  It was a great time in my life.


After college I became less and less "in the know" on what new bands were out there.  Every time I went record shopping (which was also occurring less frequently), I looked for stuff by the same bands I had always been listening to.

I was introduced to a few new bands such as Adult., Man or Astroman, Gorillaz and Galaxie 500.

And then a series of events lead me to triathlon and triathlon training and the friends I started hanging out with were a complete 180 from my previous friendships.  I started listening to a lot more pop music and discovered some of it I just really loved. A lot of what I started listening to was related in some way or another to training.  A lot of songs that would get me pumped up from artists such as P!nk, Beastie Boys, Greenday and Eminem.

Then in '11, similar to college, I met the 2nd person who would change my life again.  He introduced me to Bruce Springsteen.  And while I always *knew* who Bruce Springsteen was, I never really paid attention to the music.  When I started paying attention to the songs, I discovered something truly amazing.  Such a great artist and songwriter and performer.

Now fast forward to 2012.  Two bands are touring this year.  Two bands that couldn't be further apart on the musical spectrum, yet move me in much the same way.  Dead Can Dance and Bruce Springsteen.  DCD is one of the most awe inspiring concerts I've ever seen.  I've had the pleasure of seeing them twice live.  Both times brought me to tears.  Lisa Gerrard's voice is something that can not be described in words.  It is something that can only be heard.  And to see Lisa and Brandon perform with an entire band and array of beautiful different instruments is just awesome.  I have only seen Springsteen once, back in '84 before I really knew what a great artist he is.  I've seen a lot of you tube videos of his performances and I'm looking forward to seeing him in concert and being blown away.  I think it will be fantastic.

I hope the music never dies.  There is something fundamentally awesome about walking into a record store and just browsing.  Reading liner notes, soaking in the cover art and hanging around a bunch of other folks who just love music. It's no surprise that two of my favorite movies are "High Fidelity" and "Pirate Radio" Rock on!

Soulmate

I ended up not going out last night....it just didn't feel right so I bailed.  I don't like to back out of things, but I just wasn't up for it.  Life goes on.  When I got home I had a couple glasses of wine and four rice cakes w/ almond butter....and a 1/2 cup of homemade trail mix.  I can't seem to get on a proper dinner schedule. I'm very excited to be meeting Leslie Saturday so we can come up with a month-long program for me with weekly menus, personal classes, etc.  I'm about 75% there....just need help with the last 25%.

Still on no coffee.  Feel tired, but generally better.  Swim this morning was hard.  I went into the shallow pool because I couldn't keep up even with the peeps in the slowest lane.  I'm happy I at least finished the set.  Would have been very easy to quit.

Just need to get through the day and I'll be fine!  I saw this wall photo on facebook today.  So true.

Make today great!
--mer-oo